I spend months (or years in this case) working on and obsessing over a project. Complete said project. No sooner than the next morning, I wake up and go "did that make a difference at all?" "It probably didn't matter." "I guess I just wasted a lot of time." "What's the point?" "I should probably never do that again."
I had that conversation with myself after this project:
And most recently, this project:
|This is a picture from rehearsal for our Easter Play called "Pass It On."|
Sometimes, there isn't a way to measure the 'success' or true impact of something. Or, my measuring stick for success is wrong. "No one said anything about it…" "I got a weird look…" etc etc. I find that difficult to contend with! I want to know if all of my hard work made a difference!
It's like that in ministry, though. That's why my pastor husband comes home and likes to do the dishes. He says he can measure success tangibly with the dishes. But you can't with people. The results are up to God. And often, you will never know the results! Boo. That's a good thing, though, lest I start to think the results are dependant upon me rather than our almighty God.
But, but, but…. I like to know results! Conclusion: It's not about my precious results. It's about glorifying God and being faithful to share the truth of His word. Will someone please remind me of that tomorrow morning??